My past! *heart broken*

Sometimes things happen suddenly unplanned. I seriously can't be alone by myself. From young, when I was four! Lots of family members leave me. Do you know how heart broken and scare was i to be alone and family leave me when I was only 4 years old?? How broken heart is that? The previous month before I'm five. My dad actually have an accident in his company. My dad almost die in the hospital after he survive in front of us. My dad was in coma in hospital for 3 month. Part of his brain is destroy and have to been removed for survive. And had stay in the hospital for years. He did stay in the hospital for a years! After he came back from hospital, my dad cant even recognize everyone in the family. After 3 years finally my dad rmb us, I should be happy but I'm sad. Have you experience been beat for ten over year?? Do you know how sad and terrific each day in the hospital there is people crying around you for years?? The fact is when I was only four so many an unfortunate mishap happen! (My heart may look strong to you. if you agreed with this. *you need to know me more!*) I am actually very weak and scare in every day life around me that if same an unfortunate mishap happened to me since I'm four! I understand everyone may have different background. But know this "I DON'T NEED YOUR PITY!!!" got this fact right!